Thursday, February 18, 2016

The Return to Work

Well, it has almost been a week back at work. So far, it kind of seems like nothing has changed since I left. Same old people, same old politics, same old tasks. Which isn't a surprise really, even though I was gone for a year, I still did all of those things for the past 7 years, so they probably won't ever feel 'fresh' again. What has surprised me is how tired I am. While I thought it was tiring chasing after a 1 year old, chasing after blood samples all day is even more tiring. So now when I get home I want to do. Nothing. Nothing at all. Put my feet up. Watch Gilmore Girls and eat caramels. And maybe, just maybe drink a hot beverage...

Thursday, February 11, 2016

I'm baaaaaaaaaaaaack!!!

I know it has been a long time. A year, in fact. One would think that a year of not working would make ma more prolific blogger, but that obviously didn't happen. Instead, I spent a lot of time trying to get a baby to go to sleep. And she still doesn't get it! So I'm thinking I'm going to be spending a lot of time doing this even after I go to work. But now that I will be going back to work I thought that I would also start writing a little bit again. About lots of stuff. Cloth diapers, baby wearing, random rants.
I can't believe my second little girl is already 1. One year old is still a baby, really. She can't walk, can't talk, and can't have a decent nap. But her personality is starting to shine through. She wants us to read the same books over and over again (Spot goes to the Circus and Who said Boo?), she looooooves golden retrievers, and playing with her sister. She pats your back when she hugs you and will fetch a diaper when you ask her nicely. She can point out your nose and your teeth and laughs hysterically when you kiss her neck. Not quite a toddler, but not a little infant.

And to kick things off I thought I would start with a giveaway. How about a package of BumGenius stay dry liners? Enter to win below and happy blog reading!!

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Sunday, January 18, 2015

Prodromal Labor and then a Birth Story: Little H Finally Arrived!

So, the last month of my pregnancy was possibly the worst I have felt, physically, in my life.

I know it is nothing compared to people with chronic pain or migraines but let's be honest, I really do know how to whine.

As M was early, I was expecting this baby to be early too. Earlier than M, who came 2 1/2 weeks before her due date. I was due January 1st, so on Dec. 7th when I began feeling contractions in the middle of the night, I got very excited. They lasted a few hours, but when I went downstairs and walked around a bit they went away. Dejected, I kept waiting.

A few days later, December 9th, contractions started in the evening. They ramped up and got closer together and stronger. I though to myself, "This is it!" Then, in the morning, I got out of bed and they went away completely.

What on earth was going on? I had contractions for the entire night and I didn't have a baby. Plus we had cautiously texted people letting them know that it might be the day... and it was not. What a let down for everyone. Though it was good that I didn't have the baby that early, I wouldn't have been able to go to the birth centre as I was pre-term.

I googled and googled to see what was the matter with me. Of course, google obliged with: Prodromal Labor. I read a bunch of other mom's stories. What they had to say did not delight me. Some, (lucky ladies), had this false labor a few days before real labor. Others waited weeks.

Apparently, I fell into the "waiting for weeks" category.

My mom arrived on the 15th and every day we waited for the baby to come. I would have contractions all night several more times before Christmas, but no sign of any baby. We also didn't text anyone anymore, after crying wolf that one time.

The midwives were not that sympathetic. They told me everything was normal and that they wouldn't check me because there was really no need. They also let me know that my baby "wasn't small". Hmm... something else to look forward to, a giant baby...

Christmas day came. No contractions, but I did lose my mucous plug in the morning. A Christmas baby? Not ideal, but I'd take what I could get. I texted a friend who said she had lost hers weeks before her baby was born. Not what I wanted to hear.

(Un)fortunately, the baby had other plans and Christmas was not on the agenda. In other news, I was absolutely huge!! My stomach was like a beach ball and I was getting stretch marks all around my belly button because this baby wouldn't stop growing!!

Boxing day arrived and I lost more of the mucous plug. Still no contractions, and still no baby. I was really getting tired of the waiting game and nobody in my house liked me anymore. I didn't even like myself.

Then came December 27th. I didn't sleep all night. I was feeling super anxious. I was also not feeling any contractions, and I was pretty sure that this baby wouldn't come until after the new year.

And then in the morning, little M came in as per usual and nursed for a few minutes. I got out of bed and felt three very, very strong contractions, all one after the other. I went into M's bedroom to play with her, then felt my water break. It was 6:50am.

At last!

We called the midwife, who urged us to get to the Birth Centre as soon as possible. My contractions following the water breakage were very strong and every 2 minutes. We woke my mom up, got everything we needed together and arrived at the birth centre around 7:30 (it really isn't far from our house). The car ride was unpleasant as I had a few contractions in it, but at least we made it on time.

Our midwife wasn't able to attend the birth because she was already at one, along with our backup midwife, so we met two midwives whom we hadn't met before. Between contractions, we tried to get to know each other a little bit. Finally, I agreed to let them check me. It was around 8:30. I was 7cm! Not much to go.

I coped by pacing and rocking and singing to the music we had brought. Things were very calm. My husband's family had arrived and were taking care of M and enjoying coffee while I concentrated on birthing.

Not too long after, I felt like pushing. At 9:26, I was fully dilated and pushing like a fiend... and making lots of noise because it kind of hurt.

16 minutes later, my baby was born. Her shoulders got a little stuck, but my midwife was a pro with 25 years experience and got her out with only one tiny tear. The baby was put on my chest and instantly latched and started eating like the little piggy she is. Again, I asked everyone, "What is it???" My husband finally checked and told me it was another little girl.

Apgars were great, baby was giant (9 pounds, 0.5 oz), and I was ecstatic that it was over. It really felt like I pushed longer than 16 minutes, but for everyone else it seemed really fast. M came and hugged the baby and I felt like my family was complete.

Proud Dad and Big Sister

Sunday, November 30, 2014

Nursing while 35 Weeks Pregnant

I fear that our nursing relationship has come to an end. For the past few days, M has been nursing for about 2  minutes, unlatching, then informing me that "Milky time is broken".

My nipples are not complaining. They are sore, she bites them, and the nursing itself is not a comfortable thing. I have to keep reminding her to be gentle.

My heart is breaking a little bit.

It has been our ritual to lay in bed every morning and cuddle for 15 minutes while she nurses and snuggles, and we both give and get lots and lots of hugs and kisses.

It's our bonding time.

And while I feared that it might end once the new baby is born, it is pretty hard to take before the new baby has even come.

Also, it seems odd that I would dry up at 35 weeks... if anything, I thought more milk would be coming in at this point.

Maybe it tastes funny, or maybe it is my body getting ready to push this new one out.

Whatever it is, I am very sad to say goodbye to nursing my little toddler. But I made it to two years, exactly what the WHO recommends. And though I know she doesn't need it anymore, and I know it is one step to her becoming more independent, it still seems much more difficult for Mommy than for Child.

Did any of you have any experience drying up at 35 weeks pregnant? I'm going to ask my midwife on Wednesday to see if it is normal...

Friday, November 21, 2014

Giveaway! Modern Kids Design Holiday Giveaway

What do we do with toddlers when we have a new baby to take care of??? I vote for art projects! This set looks absolutely fantastic, and I'm sure it will keep your little one occupied for hours. Good luck, I hope one of my readers wins!

Thursday, November 20, 2014

Giving Birth at the Toronto Birth Centre

This pregnancy, I am planning to give birth at the  Toronto Birth Centre. If you haven't seen the website, or haven't even heard of it, I urge you to check it out. Apparently it cost 6 million dollars to build, which means that no expense was spared - and it shows!!! The place is absolutely amazing and beautiful. I am so excited to give birth there, it is like an upscale hotel with giant birthing tubs and fireplaces in each room.

Also, and this is a biggy, if I give birth there instead of at home, there will be minimal cleanup involved. Count me in!

The other thing about giving birth at the centre is how family friendly it is. Anyone is welcome to be at the birth with you, it has beautiful waiting rooms, and even a kitchen if you have a hankering for chocolate mouse or your mother-in-law's nut cake at a critical moment during labor or delivery. Also, this means that my daughter can be there playing in the waiting room if I decide she doesn't need to witness the birth.

I actually haven't decided if she will be there at the delivery. A lot depends on timing. If I'm birthing this tiny beast in the middle of the night, we will let little M sleep, oblivious, in her crib. If it is during the day then potentially she will be there.

People have been asking me about my birth plan. This time, I'm really not sure. I keep changing my mind, which is why no birth plan has been written down. I think one reason is because I really feel like I'll give birth any day now. The other thing is that I'm still not done school, so that is kind of taking priority over all thinking matters.

Anyways, did you give birth at a birth centre? How was your experience? And did you let your toddler watch? I'd like some feedback about that because I'm still not sure...

Thursday, November 6, 2014

[Giveaway] BayB Brand Bean Bag Giveaway!

Who doesn't need a place to put their little baby before they start walking?? And where better than a beanbag chair?? Maybe you can get one for free!